I have always been scared of changes. I don’t know why. It’s just something that been scary for me. I’m very comfortable in my bubble. Sometimes I like to blame my chronicle pain for everything.
It’s, of course, a part of it all but not the entire truth. I just hate throwing things away, I enjoy having things even if I don’t need them. Before Vince moved to Sweden and in with me I never saw the problem.
Then he wanted to make my apartment full with my things into our apartment. That is an adorable thought and wonderful thing to do with a partner. I on the other hand never saw this and denied everything and almost got a bit offended and mad every time he wanted to touch my things or throw them away.
I remember my sofa being one of those things. It has broken down more than 4 times now, we fixed it every time. I don’t like the sofa or the look of the sofa (it’s pink and is in the same room as the kitchen which is blue. So its all very messy with colors and stressful).
But when I moved to this apartment my granddad (whom I love extremely much) wanted to give me something. So for my first apartment, he gave me his old sofa with a matching armchair.
So to do the sofa represented him and his love for me and to hear it had done its job and was going to be thrown away was heartbreaking to me. We also had many conversations about my bed not being the best. It’s truly far from the best bed but it’s also the very first bed I bought for myself.
Recently I had a talk to Vince, we want to work out all the misunderstandings because far inside us we both love each other so much. But I know I can’t bring him here again and not be ready for changes or ready to open the home for him. It shouldn’t just be my home and my things.
So when my sofa yet again broke down the other day, I asked a friend to come over and throw it away.
I’m sorry grandad. It was an amazing sofa and I have many pics of me cuddling my cat in it still. It really did great work for the 5 years I had it. Thank you for letting me have it.
I want Vince to feel like it’s going to be a new start with our home. So my plan is to not buy a new sofa until we can do it together. But until then I have much to organize.
I want to donate at least half my wardrobe, I own a lot of things I never use that only take space. And I want someone else to enjoy them.
I also have collected a lot of sewing, knitting things etc. All these things are at this moment in different bags around the apartment. I want to sort them all out and place them into plastic boxes. This way I can see what’s inside but the cat not get to them as easily.
I’m a bit annoyed about finding knitting yarns everywhere in the apartment each morning.
Marie Kondo – The magic of tidying up – I love her theory because it’s not about throwing away as much as possible and make it clean on the eyes. It’s more based on you as a person and what makes you happy. She doesn’t tell you to throw away all your books, but to keep as many as you like and that makes you happy.
My problem is that I want to clean, I want to tidy up, I want to declutter everything BUT I don’t know where to start. I feel like it’s so much and that it’s all just so overwhelming. At the same time, I want Vince to be here and help me go through it all. I don’t want to do it all by myself and I know he would be respectful in my things.
Things I want to be done:
- I need to clean and put all my sewing and knitting things into boxes.
- I need to clean out my wardrobe.
- I need to declutter all my shampoos, body butter, and creams
- Sell my kitchen table and buy a new much smaller one.
- Get a new sofa and table
- Try to make my kitchen into the color theme green/bronze/white
- Start looking into a new bed and color theme for the bedroom.
- Get the TV from the floor and up on the wall.
- Try to get Vince and my computer next to each other.
- Go through all my paperwork and books and see what I need to keep.
I have a long way to go but will try to bring you guys with me in my revamping of the apartment and life.
I just started some new pills and thought this would be a great time to actually do something. My apartment and living space have been stressing me out for a long time. It’s time to take the bull by its horns.
Have you ever done a decluttering of a room or your entire home?