I hate my boss but love my job
I don’t really hate my job. I just hate my new boss. He has been with us for more than 1 year now and I thought it would get better, I really did. But towards me, it just got worse.
One day I just woke up and felt like I didn’t want to go to work. That I rather just quit and never see his face again. It was a big and sad decision for me considering I love what I do. I’m a librarian who works mostly towards elderly homes, seniors and mentally handicapped.
It’s an amazing job and I love everyone I work with. But ever since that boss started I started to feel mentally bullied, discriminated, like I’m worthless and nothing I do is ever good enough for him.
I had real hopes he wouldn’t stay long here considering he never sold his apartment in another city. But sadly I don’t think its the case. And inside of letting him crush me and my self-confidence more, I decided to quit.
Here in Sweden we usually have 3 months after the day we quit. So I’m not totally free yet but after handing in my resignation I felt this huge rock lifted from my shoulders.
I recently started to declutter and clean out my apartment but considering this I will need to do it even more. I will for a short time move back to my parents and try to figure out what it is I really want to do with my life.
With my education, I don’t have a hard time getting a job so that part doesn’t really worry me. But as a person who is afraid of change and an uncertain future, it really does worry me.
Something I think I can do to calm myself is:
- Eat properly
We all need to eat, but I have a tendency to not always do so. So I need to start eating every day and preferably proper dinners and not bought fried food.
- Stop waiting to the last day to pay bills
I have this strange thing in me that wait until the last day until I pay my bills. It’s like I enjoy the rush of “Will she pay this month?”. I always do. But waiting until the last day might cause extra drama and stress.
As I’m moving soon I will also quit my gym membership. But as the spring is here I can finally start going for long walks in the forest. This might help me sleep better in the evenings.
- Doing things that make me happy
I know what makes me happy but sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to do them. That I always do what others want to do and I always follow them. Life is to short to do what others want. Its time I, Elin, decide what I enjoy and then do it!
I have many “friends” who are very needy in energy. And I say “friends” because I don’t think they consider me a friend. They want sympathy and someone to complain to. They take my energy daily. I don’t need these people around me or at least I don’t need to sit up every night listening to them complain. I need to declutter people that take more than they give back or at least give them less.
Do you enjoy your job? What do you do?