I know this shouldn’t be a sign Im a failiure in my life. But something in me makes me feel like it is.
I didn’t move back home because I lost my job. I decided to resign myself after a year of mental torment by my closest boss. When I threw the resignation paper at him I felt this enpowerment and realife. And I felt like I probebly should have done it sooner. Im a very stubborn person and don’t give up easily.
My new job starts in august which means I now have a longer period of vacation on my hands. I decided to spend this vacation by getting back to me and do things I enjoy. Ever since I was a kid I have had a plan, been in school, done extra classes, been working (at one point I even had 4 jobs and school). I also had things on my summer vacations which meamt I was never free. I will truly enjoy my freedom for a bit and dive into things I love.
A few of the things I want to do is:
- Start swimming again so I can cross the big lake outside my hometown. As a former swimmer I always wanted to cross it but I gpt stuck up in work, school and trsining other swimmers.
- Write more erotic novels fpr amazon. I enjoy the fact that I can openly admit I love writing this. Even my parents seems rather ok with it.
- vlogging. 3 years ago I bought a camera to do vlogs. I have started a couple times but in the end I never had time to actually keep going.